My New Job Title

It’s been almost 4 months since I launched my online boutique. Crazy! It’s been almost 8 months since I left my fancy pharma job. Even crazier! I will forever call it my fancy pharma job. It’s appropriate, but it also sounds better than my soul-sucking pharma job. Anyway, here I am! Right smack dab in the middle of building a dream!

I awake every morning to the sound of chirping birds. You know the ones that sing with Snow White? Yeah, those same ones. I then rise with a smile on my face and sing along. Working from my adorable little desk is riveting, and the beautiful “boutique room” that my husband built for me is my haven. I have so many sales each day that I can hardly keep up with the packages! Can you believe I have already completely replenished my income from the fancy pharma job?! I’m truly living in a fairytale and it’s all I could have ever hoped for.

If you’re still here and you aren’t rolling your eyes yet, please pause and do so now. The only thing true in that last paragraph is that I work from a desk at home, and my husband really did build me a boutique room lol.

Okay, now I can be honest. As thankful as I am literally every single day to not be working a job that doesn’t fulfill me, it’s still hard. UGH. How whiney does that sound? Like, I took this huge leap of faith and stepped into entrepreneurial life (a life-long dream of mine), and I’m still not satisfied? What is wrong with me?

The answer is I may never be fully satisfied in life. There’s always more. More, more, more! I’m an enneagram 7. Makes perfect sense if you understand the enneagram. In my mind, this was just one step in the direction I see myself going professionally, but I still have a LONG way to go.

I don’t think this makes me ungrateful or unaware of the incredible situation I am in right now, but I am endlessly ambitious and hyper aware of opportunity. To me, the opportunities this business has already given me is mind-blowing. I constantly think about what’s next, and what direction I can go in.

The truth is, working from home (I actually prefer the term “working remotely”) has taught me a lot about myself. Y’all, I am the toughest manager I’ve ever had. I can’t tell you how many managers from my past have twisted and tried to pull things out of me that I just didn’t want to give. I would stare blankly wondering if their soul was being sucked away too (LOL), then quickly flash a smile and cover up my misery. The amount of pressure they put on me doesn’t hold a candle to my own self-awareness and critiques.

Building a business is an interesting journey. That’s the understatement of the year. I have to work so hard to keep myself on track, and have a plan for each day. I get frustrated when things don’t work out just the way I want. At the end of the day, this is where I want to be. It’s where I’ve always wanted to be and trust me, I don’t take that for granted.

I love y’all for following along on this journey with me. Now, go shopping!

xoxo,

Dee